Usually in life, packing your bags and running away when you’re experiencing a moment of frustration isn't an option. In ‘real life’ you are forced to find a way to adjust, move on, and get over it. Here in Nicaragua, all we have to do is say the words that we are done, that we can’t take anymore and in a few days we will be on a one way flight home. It’s that easy. But what exactly would that accomplish? Would running away from challenges bring happiness?
Regardless of where a
person is in life, it’s probably a great lesson to learn to not let your ability to be happy rest on the actions of others. Lately, I have had to remind myself that
although bad people can temporarily rob me of my sense of security, physically
hurt me or steal my favorite things, they sure as heck cannot steal my
happiness. Only I have control over my
reactions and outlook. As a good friend of mine so nicely put it, we can build tons of wonderful memories but unfortunately, it only takes one bad event to shatter all the good ones. So it's important to remember that happiness is found in the simple things, like a cup of good Jinotega coffee, an
old fashion book (the page flipping type), a song (on an ipod from 2004), a
conversation (on a $18 cell phone or rocking chairs), a hot shower (with a bucket), unplanned adventures and officially being a proud owner of a mini-fridge. Happiness is definitely, definitely not found in a shiny,
perfect, flawlessly beautiful Samsung Galaxy tablet… right? Happiness is embracing where we are, the simple things that we have, and simply making the best out of our circumstances. As much as I have felt ‘over it’
in the past few months, and over mal-intended people, it’s important to
remember that a few bad moments can’t ruin this amazing experience.
Life is so incredibly
good. This experience is so incredibly
unique, beautiful and completely impossible to replicate. Just this month, I watched a baby be brought
into this world, saw a man’s life be saved with a leg amputation, organized a national event, proudly watched my students compete in the National Small Business Competition, and I sat with the Ambassador in
her living room discussing current political events and Nicaragua-US relations
after a delicious Thanksgiving meal.
I am so grateful for
this experience, difficulties and all, because this is a once
in a lifetime opportunity. No one ever
said it would be easy, and honestly, I wanted to be challenged. So this Thanksgiving,
I am grateful for the ability to overcome challenges, for my health, my general safety, my beautiful
family, FSU being #1 in the nation, #unconquered! living in the cold mountains and even for the
challenges that will maybe one day make me stronger or at least give me a good
story to tell. J And last but not least, my dear, sweet
Nicaragua, I am still so incredibly grateful for you and all the goodness you
have shown me over the past 20 months.
